Secret

The four months routine

You know what I really miss the old me, I am spiritual person with full of passion in everything I did. Tapi sekarang nak cari ciri ciri tu ibarat jauh panggang dari api. Really, I don't know what had happened to me, I've lost my interest in all things which I ever feel interesting. I love cooking and baking cakes. It's one of my passions, but currently I can't find the perfect time to do those things. Whoaaaa, please I need some therapy. 

The one and only passion yang masih tak hilang adalah shopping. Somehow shopping is the best therapy, although it just window shopping. How great it is to look at the beautiful outfit, nice jeans, adorable accessories, unique yet affordable scarves. Kira nya bila dah tengok semua benda cantik tu, stress and tension seharian aku akan hilang. Okay that's really Fifie, the next shopaholic girl. 

I'm working (intern) during the day and night I will only sleep after 3am *aku susah nak tidur atau pun dipanggil insomnia. I wake up at 7am get ready to work and start my day at 8am, I have to follow the office hours jadi balik pukul 5. Get a rest a while and start to do my thesis, check email, log in to facebook*hello I pun perlu enjoy. Lepas tu makan makan, iron baju untuk esok and get to sleep. That is my routine for almost 4months, and seriously I still can't adapt with this situation*sigh. 

Ya allah, the only thing that I pray is let time flies very fast. Yes maksud saya dengan pantas, terlampau pantas. Let this suffers end quickly, I'm no longer inspired and I'm no longer can bear with it. I want my enjoyable life back, I want my passions back, I want the spirit of doing something I used to have. Fuhhh, lepas sikit tension.

Tutorial custom-made rose

Hello readers,
This is my first entry ever pasal tutorial something, malam nie rasa nak jadi girlish and little bit creative. Oh yes, jauh panggang dari api aku memang tak pernah nak creative. How much I'm working on it but sometimes it didn't happened to me. Biasa lah anugerah Allah yang satu tu tak melekat pada gen aku.


I've been thinking about this for a long time on how to make a rose, a custom made. This is because, I've fall in love with tudung bawal which sold by one of the websites that make a tudung bawal decoration using custom made rose. Serious cantik, aku beli sehelai semata mata nak tengok dengan mata kasar how the roses. Then few weeks ago, I was searching on tutorials how to make fabric flower. So tonight after spending some time belek belek tuto tu dengan lebih mendalam, aku tekad kan hati buat jugak roses tu. 


Jom kita buat sama sama ye. To do new things we must apply TRY&ERROR principle. Hewhew. In case tak menjadi takde la kita down sangat kan.


Pertama sekali haruslah sedia kan bahan-bahan yang diperlukan :

• Lebihan kain chiffon dalam 1meter (lebih cantik kain lace atau organza)
• Gunting
• Jarum dan benang
• Pearl (mutiara) atau manik atau butang
• Lilin

Cara-cara nya ialah (agak skema ye anak anak murid)

1. Tekapkan cawan ke atas kain chiffon tadi dan tandakan dengan menggunakan pen atau marker.
2. Gunting kain tersebut mengikut lilitan yang ditanda
3. Gunting lagi dalam 5 keping mengikut size yang semakin kecil. 
4. Dekatkan kain pada lilin, jangan terlalu dekat takut nanti ada kesan kesan hitam di kelopak tu (tak cantik)
5. Terhasil lah kelopak bunga rose pelbagai saiz
6. Susun kelopak tersebut tadi dari besar ke kecil
7. Jahitkan benang di bawah dan masuk kan manik 
8. Matikan jahitan di belakang kelopak-kelopak bunga

Okay sebab nie kali pertama aku cuba benda benda macam nie, jadi tolong jangan kritik. Tak la menjadi sangat, tapi umi cakap it's okay and cute (bodek betul). Takpe lah, nanti dah lama lama try buat insyaAllah akan menjadi. 

Pada yang nak cuba buat benda nie boleh la terjah ke sini. Dia punya lagi hebat dowh !

Hijabista

Hye readers,



Is this only me or all of girls pun macam nie, I always have a problem in choosing my outfit no matter how much I already have clothes. I usually bought my clothes like every week tak pun if I'm in the "fasting" mood season I only do shopping once in a month. Okay that's good for me. But still why and why I have this problem ? I always feel like this blouse no longer suitable for me, this jeans makes me boring, this blouse is out dated. Sedangkan, I only wore it once or twice lepas tu terus bagi dekat orang. Pity on me, I have to refer my case to doctor. Haha. 



As I am wearing tudung I always find a menutup aurat but awesome fashion that can be worn by me. I want to look beautiful too okay. Alright, after spending some time last night in preparing this pictures let me share it with you. This is my opinion and thoughts as it suits me well. Oh I might not the right person to give opinions in fashion but who care. I am fashion junkie :')

Aku suka chiffon blouse, lebih lebih yang batwing macam nie it's flowy and comfy. But the problem is material chiffon nie dia agak nipis jadi untuk mengelakkan pandang mata mata liar yang tak berapa nak cun aku pakai inner tee inside of the blouse. Boleh cover the hands too. Untuk seluar aku pilih palazo sebab nak lari dari fesyen jeans biasa je. Trust me, it is soooooo cantik and eye catching.

For the simple yet fashionable I will choose this style. Wearing skinny jeans along with dress blouse. Also can makes me look thinner. Hewhew. Oh yea, I love black skinny jeans sebab peha aku besar. 

 This is simple, memang simple habis. Setakat nak hantar adik ke sekolah apa ke jadah nak pakai cun lebih lebih. I wear color block cardigan with a shirt and high waist boot cut jeans. Cun. Bila dah cardigan tu banyak banyak color, i prefer to choose white shirt sebab tak nak nanti nampak macam clown. Tapi kalau korang berani nak pakai banyak banyak color it's okay. Apa kisah dengan mulut orang kan.

Warning : Don't wear this to Pasar Ikan or else akibat nya tanggung sendiri. Hewhew. This is so tempting and in style. I saw Liyana Jasmay wearing this in movie. You can wear plain maxi dress along with floral printed cardigan and put a belt as an accessory. Nanti takde la nampak plain sangat kan. But it is okay if you wear plain cardigan with plain maxi dress. But later you'll look ermmm gloomy.  I have a maxi dress which is custome made, jahit dengan tailor sendiri sebab aku tinggi kalau order benda benda macam nie akan senteng nanti. Tak cantik la.

Okay, this one is soooooo stylish and girlish. Kalau yang 26 years old pakai sure nampak muda 3,4 years. Hewhew. Wearing crop tee with long plain sleeveless and skinny. It just in trend  

Aku google high waist button jeans tapi tak jumpa, and I end up with this jeans. It is high waist jeans and it truly trendy, for those yang bertudung you can wear this in a good way. Tuck in your sleeve less into the jeans and for the outside you can wear long plain cardigan. It will cover your back.

This is really suitable for hang out with friends or maybe the love one during weekend,  maybe for latenigh movie or shopping. Long sleeve plain shirt with floral printed palazo and belt for the accessories. Belt nie kira nya penyelamat gaya as dia akan menampakkan kamu lebih kurus. 

Kalau nampak di online store mahu pun butik butik baju, mostly chiffon blose mesti tak labuh sangat  dan tak lepas bontot. Jadi my solution is I wear the blouse with high waist mini skirt and straight cut jeans. Then the mini skirt will cover the back.  Kalau blouse tu jenis plain you can wear with printed mini skirt like the picture above, it is tribal printed mini skirt and I've already seen my friend worn like this. It's totally great and howtttt.

Tapi dalam banyak banyak gaya yang aku tunjuk, I've always love this. Kalau setakat nak pergi pejabat pos nak hantar barang dekat customers tak kan nak bemaxi dress bagai. This is really me, long sleeve shirt with boot cut jeans, printed scarf and flat shoes. Me love this !!

p/s : me just bought this at F21 and it sooooooo overwhelming and tempting. Me love this !

Sebenarnya banyak lagi fashion yang korang sendiri boleh terokai,  my tips is observe what fashionista wears and get your own style. Sama tak apa, as long as you can wear it with your own style and last but not least biar lah ia selesa dengan korang. 

Because I grow up

Assalamualaikum dearest,


Tonight I feel like to talk about love. All of us know what is love, but do you really know the true meaning of love ? Before met with encikYb, I used to be in love with 2,3 guys. I admit that he's not the one for me but I am praying to Allah may he is the last for me. I've seen lot of friends, cousins are suffering from love at the young age. I mean they are younger than me but they had experienced putus cinta faster than mine. It's awkward actually to write this as I think I'm not the right one. But I feel like I have to write this, or give them some advice. 


Sayang, love is not the main issue when you're still fighting for your future. Ye ye, I know it's hard to let go someone who used to be in your heart and your life for about 4,5 months. But you don't have any other option right ? Either you want or not, you still have to forget him. You must be wondering why Allah let this happened to me, why I'm the one who need to suffer. Kannn. I used to ask Allah all these silly question, and He didn't give me any answers for that. But as time goes by, I started to realize and get the answers for my last 5,6 years questions. 


Sayang, trust me. Everything happened for a reason. Tak ada nya Allah saja saja jadi kan semua benda tu. Today you break up with this boy, later you'll find the right man for you. Today you cried a lot because of this boy, later you'll laugh a lot because of the right man. You can see the differentiation right. I used to cry because of boys, I used lost my appetite because of of boys, I used to lost my focus in study because of of boys, I used to lost my weight because of of boys, I used to have a cold relationship with my family because of boys. If to be remember what I've done, it is uncountable my mistakes to family and friends. 


As I grow up, I don't see any point why I need to be in love if I'm the only one who get hurt at last. I love my single life, I love to be surrounded by my lovely families and dearest friends. They are my true love. They give me non-stop supporting, they hug me when I need to, they lend me their ears and shoulders when I'm down. 


Sayang, as a kakak it's my turn to give you my words. Just forget it how much mistakes I've done I'm just trying to be the better me. Bercinta is good as long as it didn't give effects to your daily life, but the thing you have to remember is bercinta lah berpada pada. It is useless to give your 100% focus and love to them, as you don't know who is going to be your husband or soulmate. Sometimes, you two have been tied in quite long bonding but in the end, he left you with no reasons. Or maybe you are going to meet somebody else in the future and see he is not the right for you. 


You are young, you have good mind, good memories, good future. And why you waste your time with useless things. Please sisters, be strong. Crying is good, but it won't change anything. Sayang, world is big. Trust me, it's really big and you don't know where you are in the future. Go and dig your dreams, make it true. It's much better than chasing boys. 

You can't keep chasing someone who clearly doesn't want to be in your life anymore, let them go and you'll thank yourself one day.

*now I thank myself :') Good night and thanks for reading.

It's true,isn't it ?

Treat your girl right, bro. Plain and simple.


I know it can be hard to please her sometimes, but it's worth it in the end. Remember that she's your happiness, your world. She should be the first person you talk to in the morning, and the last person you whisper "Good night" to. Unlike some of your bros, she's going to be there for you when you're the happiest, but most importantly, when you're at your lowest. She'll cook for you and care for you, so treat her like a queen. Girls are delicate creatures. Think before you act. Think before you say. They take every little mistakes you make and multiply it by a thousand. So try not to mess up, alright ? When you're fighting, sometimes it's better to put your relationship before your own pride. You're not helping yourself by making her upset, bro. And never, ever under any condition, let her go to sleep crying. She'll resent your for it for the rest of your days. Don't forget to make her feel special everyday. Open doors, go shopping with her. Hell, make dinner for her. The more you show her you love her, the more she'll give you in return. Remember that an "I love you" via text is never as special as one in person. And show her off to your bros, don't be ashamed of her. She's never been ashamed of your dorky ass. Look, she doesn't really need much in a relationship, she just wants to feel like she matters to you. That's not asking for much, bro. 

But if you haven't learned a thing from reading this. Love her unconditionally, loyally, and keep her close. Love her with everything you've got, emotionally, mentally and physically. Because I swear, if you won't treat your girl right, someone else definitely will.

*copied form : Karl To facebook

Thesis oh Tesis

Exhausted. It's been three, four days I didn't get a nice sleep, I've been very busy this week. Sangat sibuk. Mana dengan kerja nya, mana dengan bisnes nya, mana nak urus pasal tesis lagi. Letih yang amat. But when we do something we love, we do it with passion. Semangat jitu gitu. Tak kira dah ranjau malah onak berduri pun sanggup lalui, tapi tu lah kan. Aku nie kalau bab bisnes laju je, kerja pun even tak berapa nak ikhlas bekerja tapi tapi when it comes to thesis, aku malas,bosan macam macam alasan aku bagi. Alasan paling jitu, ala lambat lagi dateline. Haaaa tu lah ciri ciri pelajar berjaya macam aku nie, harus lah buat kerja waktu waktu kecederaan. It's cool, cacat la sape yang buat awal awal tu. Auuu~

Okay, back to the story. Minggu lepas siap je buat draf untuk tesis terus aku email dekat advisor aku untuk dia buat correction di mana yang patut la. Lepas tu dalam dua tiga hari lepas tu, aku dapat mesej dia berbunyi lebih kurang macam nie " I've checked your draf and you need major corrections. please come see me on next week ". Arghh kalau korang, kalau korang la apa yang korang rasa ? Pedih ulu hati wey, banyak salah kot. Dah la nak buat kemain susah. Seminggu wey aku tidur tak lena, asyik kejarkan draf nie. 

Nak dijadikan cerita, minggu nie aku pergi la ke Dungun tu nak jumpa advisor kan. Yang menyedihkan, takde orang nak teman. Semua pun busy. :( Jadi dengan semangat jitu, drive la sorang sorang ke Dungun. Okay tiba tiba rasa macam Iron Lady. Hahaha. Tahu tahu cerita aku nie macam menyayat sikit kan, tapi takpe. Ada sedikit part yang best, bila advisor tu bagi aku tajuk tesis yang baru untuk aku siap sedia dengan isi isi, macam mana nak buat, references lagi. Oh a big Thanks for you miss. 

Okay end of story, nak dengar eh nak baca banyak banyak lagi. Meh la rumah aku. I can talk like about 24/7. Yessssssss. Like serious.